[	mood	|	determined	]
[	music	|	"down" by: kutless	]

HAPPY WEDNESDAY!!

well, you guessed it , school tomorrow....! i am definetly determined to do good in school this year! I have got to make better grades or i will never get in the medical field! lol

church tonite!!!!! yay!!!! I love youth group it's awesome!  omg i dont think i have told all of you that my sister Amberlee is pregnant! and its due in March (my bday month!)  shes so little..i just dont see her as a mom at all..shes so i dunno, maybe its just cause shes my sister.

oh and morgan we dont wear tights in guard...im suprised the dry cleaners took yours, im suprised they didnt throw them away or put them in a shredder.  Do I need to say anymore??

well, i wish i got more sleep since its the last day i get to sleep in! since school is tomorrow!!!!!! ahh! i totally forgot when to wake up to go to school.. oh well ill go by ear.

make me feel loved and LEAVE ME COMMENTS!

<3Chelsea

[	mood	|	listless	]
[	music	|	"San Angelo" by: Third Day	]

This song im about to put up pretty much describes my sister Brandi in some way, there are a lot more troubles she is going through, and I feel horrible cause I havent been praying for her as much as I like too. Please whoever reading this pray for my sister.  Sometimes when I start to pray for her I start to ball and I cant stop then the prayer is never said.  well anyways heres the song lyrics by Third Day.

                        ITS A SHAME

I hate to be, to be the one/ who's given up/ and feels that all our hope is gone/ but what I thought was a miracle/ just turned into the same old / problem that it was/ she longs for better days/ shes always been afraid// chorus: its a shame, oh its a shame/ that you are throwing your whole life away/ its a shame, oh its a shame/ I wonder if youre ever going to change/ its a shame// ever since I can recall/ she has been so afraid/ of you losing it all/ what do you want/ do you even know/ and is it worth the pain/ we all have to endure/ she longs for better days/ shes always been afraid/ you left her without leaving/ you hit her without swinging/ you took away without giving a thing/ except for pain and sorrow/ im praying that tomorrow/ you will open up your eyes and see

I wanna describe why this song fits her so much. But when it says "what i thought was a miracle, just turned into the same old problem that it was"  that part would be when finally brandi kicked out Barry (her boyfriend who hit her and did drugs and made her pregnant etc.)  we all thought it was a miracle that she did that, but then after a week he started coming back and seeing Haven (his kid) he would be all nice to brandi and saying he wants to come back, and she just lets him stay awhile and then he has two different personalitys. (he didnt take his anger pills or something)  so she now thinks she loves him  still cause hes been so nice, but in reality people like him dont ever change unless they somehow get help or find God, but i seriously think hes a demon just someone evil in her life trying to get in the way of brandis spiratual life.  ( i know that might sound stupid, but i believe it)

then when the song says "what do you want, do you even know and is it worth the pain that we all have to endure" well i see that as Shes always calling us and saying she wants things to change and life to be different cause its horrible, she has no money and 2 kids living on her own and a boyfriend scaring off her friends cause he would threaten their lives if they went near brandi.  So she has no friends either. She wants things to change unyet shes not doing anything about it. She tried kicking him out, unyet she takes him back cause she thinks shes still in love with the loser! She needs to do something about it.  I think personaly that if she found GOd and had him in her life again that she would have more hope and confidence.

Then the song says: "you left her without leaving/ you hit her without swinging/ you took away without giving a thing"   I see it as Barry left her but then came back so he really didnt leave. Then he hit her without swinging (but he has) as in he ruined her life by making her pregnant .  And he took away her mind and soul and body without giving a thing, just being there and beating her and nagging her and brutely saying mean things to bring her down. unyet im not even praying, its like i forget and i have others things to do. But everyday when i hear what more is happening in her life i tell myself im going to pray for her now. and i never really do.  Im seriously going to start but i may need some help from my dad or a friend who truely wants her to change too. well thats enough about her life.  Please leave comments or prayers. God Bless!

(this all just shows you to stay abstinent and never let a guy stay in your life if hes taking away your everything, hes not worth your life!)

<3 Chelsea